At what point do you say your voluntarism is no longer worth it? At what point do you just say it's time to quit because I really don't feel like having my balls cut off?
How do you cut your losses and jam on the brakes before you go careening over the edge into a free-fall of unexpected stress? How do you withdraw from a war that you never chose to enter?
How do you stop a situation that has sucked you in like a force of gravity, and now you are circling the planet and unable to escape the grasp, going round and round?
How do freeze time, or go back in time and undo decisions that were foolishly made? How do you go back and take the eyes of the present with you so you can see more clearly?
How do you ever work with groups of people and come out with no regrets? How do you justify fighting to stand firm for a cause that is worth it, but which also requires you to face opposition and emotional challenges that you never expected?
How do you clean up your heart and wash away feelings of failure, disillusionment and sadness? Is removing yourself from a situation the only way to save yourself?
Why are people so unable to trust when they can see the people who are helping them standing right in front of them? How is it that trust cannot be built and maintained? How is it that someone can stand back and criticize and stir up suspicion and then not offer to be part of the solution?
I am feeling so done with volunteerism, with being the helper, with freely adding my own value and insight, whatever that may (or may not) be!
How do you not let small potatoes drive you fucking insane?
